Starting off

This blog has been a long time coming for me.  My name is Jamie and I currently weigh around 280 pounds.  All my life I have struggled with my weight.  It is something that has been a burden and anyone who battles with their weight knows that the journey to finally being happy with your body starts and stops and starts again all the time.  It is now the final time that I am "starting" over again.  I have major self esteem issues with not only my weight but my personality and how others perceive me.  I have wanted to make this blog for a long time and have been recently inspired by many things.  I am currently in college and these are supposed to be the best of years of my life.  I am finding it hard to do this feeling the way that I do about myself.  This blog is going to be my journey of improving my physical fitness and also my mental health.  I have experienced minor depression in the past and I know the signs and symptoms: overeating, excessive sleeping, sense of hopelessness, feeling of helplessness, and lack of interest to do activities.  I feel myself slipping into my old ways again.  I also want to FINALLY be comfortable with my body.  I have progressively gained weight since I was 14.  Even when I was 165 pounds I was not happy with my body at all.  This really speaks to my mental status and how that has played a major role in my weight gain.  I fully understand that my weight loss is going to take a very long time but honestly, I am excited to completely change my life for the better.  I know once I achieve my various goals, I will radiate positivity and be a better person because of it.  I will be posting everyday different steps I have taken to get to my goal and also how my goals are going.  Thanks for your time and I hope that this blog inspires someone, anyone to take the leap of faith that I have made to be a healthier person.